Something is up
I can feel it
You say you’re fine
I don’t believe it
Eyes down
Shoulders slumped
Your body is tired
I can see it
Still I have to wonder
Are you pushing me away
Searching for the words
To let you let me in
That’s what you ask of me
To be vulnerable
So I try again
The fire in me ablaze
I just want your attention
To try and hold your gaze
Just for a moment
Before it fades away
You make me feel priceless
When you look at me that way
Raw to the touch
You flinch at the very
Thought that anyone
Could ease the pain you carry
But when you’ve been let down
Drug out and dried up
You have nothing left
No more to pour from your cup
You know I can see it
And maybe that’s why
You try so hard to conceal it
It does get me feeling
A certain type of way
Hitting my emotional ceiling
It’s easy to seem unfazed
I can feel myself closing
I’m trying to be patient
My confidence decomposing
I question every statement
Tense and untrusting
Like you’re waiting for a knife
To meet your broken skin
Exposing your tragic life
You expect to be hurt
Afraid to just live
So you wait on guard
Just to shut down again
Maybe that’s not true and
You’re just trying to hide
The darkest parts of you
For fear I’ll leave you behind
But you’ve seen me at my worst
Left bleeding raw and open
No choice but to show you
All the parts of me so broken
I couldn’t bare the thought
Of watching someone else go
But for my love you fought
Something I’ve never known
Softened my rough edges
One kiss at a time
Brought me out of the trenches
Now I call you mine
Don’t you think you deserve
The same grace you gave me
Neglecting over time
That little boy screaming save me
Muffled by a soft “I’m fine”
A blank stare and eyes so heavy
I want to help heal you
See you sleep soundly
Slow the thoughts in your mind
Ease your hearts pounding
I can rinse and bandage
Those gashes on your back
Cleaning up wounds
I didn’t have a hand in